Waiting to Collide

Icicle, Tori Amos

And when my hand touches myself
I can finally rest my head
And when they say take of his body
I think I’ll take of mine instead
Getting off, getting off while they’re all downstairs
Singing prayers, sing away
He’s in my pumpkin PJs
Lay your book on my chest
Feel the word, feel the word
Feel the word, feel the word

Physical passion v Religious passion

Someone told me they felt guilty when they masturbated when they were young.  Why such guilt, such competition between church and bed?  Civilize and tame.

Multiple people have told me they dislike keeping a journal.  They feel disgust or embarrassment.  Wrapped up in concealing flaws.  Lovers see the physical flaws.  God can see spiritual flaws.  The spiritual lover.  The bad lover.  Inspiring shame.  Instead of pride and ecstasy for they and yourself and mostly for the beauty of existence.

The sensual church.  Life without disgust or shame.